“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life.” ~ Steve Jobs
Mentally I think we all have an ideal self. Recently I was challenged to write an exciting introduction paragraph about myself that made people feel that I was uniquely in common with them. For an hour I wrote down things that I love – all things that glitter, spicy fragrance, patent leather shoes, and pickles. My mind began to wander as I thought about the person that I would like others to see – a bold yet romantic artist and author that puts her soul into everything she does. A woman that is real to a fault which often does not make me the most warm and fuzzy person, but a very trust worthy friend. A Mother – regardless if I had anything to do with physically placing my children on this earth. These things really flesh out who I am in my mind, but is that what I portray every day? Nope – daily I am the curly haired hot mess that is running around making lunches, trying to get the dogs in the house, and that forgets to kiss my husband goodbye.
Time waits for no one. The kids are still going to drip maple syrup on their shirt in the morning. Your husband still needs you to be supportive and listen as he vents about his ex-wife. Life does not come with a pause button – trust me I have searched. What I have found is that I tend to waste my precious time. I am spending not just minutes, but hours living a life that is not “me”. I seem to have woken up in someone else’s life – not the one I have dreamed of. I know – Hello and welcome to reality. Many days I feel more like a maid and baby sitter rather than who I perceive myself to be.
Somehow each of us needs to reclaim a little bit of our identity that is hiding deep inside. Of course we need to deal with the madness of managing the everyday dramas of running a blended household, but we still need to carve out a brief moments just for us. It isn’t impossible to find a little time to take pleasure in something that makes you feel selfish, yet lifts your heart and makes your eyes glisten. I know what you are thinking – that I am crazy. Your brain is flooding with all of the reasons why this could never happen. Stop it. I am sitting amongst piles of paperwork, dirty dishes are in the sink, laundry has been waiting in the dryer for me to fold since yesterday. Yet I choose to write. I choose to nourish my soul. I choose to let myself shine.
You can’t put time on pause, but you can ask others to pause their immediate needs while you put yours first. I will let you in on a little secret, something magical will happen. When you do finally get to the dishes and laundry it somehow becomes a little easier. You will have a smile on your face and life just feels lighter. Don’t let your passions die because you are so focused on taking care of everyone around you. Be YOU! What makes each of us uniquely beautiful are our passions – the things that make you light up when you talk about them. The things that unfortunately get lost in the every day world. Those passions are one of your greatest treasures, don’t let them get buried. Find a way, no matter how small, to let your soul shine through.
Take Care Friends…
~ Amy Z
Photo – This is my mantel 🙂